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Tue, Jun. 28th, 2005, 08:39 pm

Another school year by. Only one more to go. I have a whole year and am already freaking out about what am going to do in life. Cook, Paint, Illustrate!?!?! Midwife, Dogbreeder, Choclatier!!?!?! Personal Consultant, Professional Insultant, Astrologer!??!
Hectic, indeed.

Life is marvy. 3 days until a year w. me an' joey d.
Am practically engaged. Am practically married. Am practically mother of 4 and pregnant w. another.
Am practically grandma.
Thanks, Dick.

Summer school starts on Friday. A dark cloud over my already cloudy summer.
Thanks, El Nino.

My parents want to invest in a stupid chihuahua. Personally, i would prefer a golden retriever or chocolate lab, or a lady pitbull. But parents insist on pussy dog.
I'll love it instantly, as i always do.


no mermaid

we went down to the edge of the water
you were afraid to go in
you said there might be sharks out there in the ocean
and i said i'm only going for a swim

i was swimming around in a circle
i wasn't always in view
you said we might get into red flag danger
and i am alone when i'm not with you

but i am no mermaid
i am no mermaid
and i am no fisherman's slave
i am no mermaid
i am no mermaid
i keep my head above the waves

we were swinging from the centre of the ceiling
you were afraid to give in
i said i know i'll always live for this feeling
and you closed your eyes you said never again

we were dancing in the middle of the desert
you said we'll burn under the hot sun
i said i'd rather be the colour of pleasure
than watch like you from under the thumb

but i am no mermaid
i am no mermaid
and i am no fisherman's slave
i am no mermaid
i am no mermaid
i keep my head above the waves

we went down to the edge of the water
you were afraid to go in
you said there might be sharks out there in the ocean
and i said i'm only going for a swim

i was living around in a circle
i wasn't always in view
you said we might get into red flag danger
and i am alone when i'm not with you

but i am no mermaid
i am no mermaid
and i am no fisherman's slave
i am no mermaid
i am no mermaid
i keep my head above the waves

Sun, Apr. 17th, 2005, 06:16 pm
WHEEE!!!

SO EXCITED FOR NEW WHITE STRIPES ALBUM!!!!

 

JUNE 7TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, Apr. 6th, 2005, 05:43 pm
a shitfest dubbed "spring break"....

Have just spent 2 hours basking in public bathroom and b.o. scented oversized van. Must admit that the b.o. was me, but still. No excuse for the piss smell.
Nothing heard from joseph. what should I expect though? he's only 8,745,234 miles away. No, not the moon, the caribbean. wouldn't that be cool though? If he was on the moon? then he could bring me back stardust and moonbeams and all that other fantastic b.s.
I'm so glad to be home though, i can finally have a shower and rinse clean of that "fresh" canadian scent. And i need a cigarette, but no longer have any due to yesterday's chainsmoking extravaganza. So let's recap of the "vacation" in canada (where i did not smoke any weed with my mother. sadly. although i did have a chinese beer.):

Day one in Canada:
Headed off for Canuckland about 3 hours after originally planned. took about 4 hours to get to vancouver island, then about 5 million years to find a damned hotel that could fit the oversized piss van in the parking garage (which never happened). by then too late to eat dinner any where. so it ended up us staying at best western, parking at the embassy inn, and eating at the days inn (who were closed, but were nice enough to make us food to go.) Was very upset w. self for not at all bringing the following:

1. toothbrush
2. lighter
3. pyjamas
4. birth control
5. deodorant
6. money
7. horse tranquilizers
and
8. shampoo/conditioner

Day Two in Canada:
Spent the day walking around with mom in the fish scented canadian rain (their tap water tastes and smells like fish too, i don't recommend it). was scared shitless by herion addicted canadians and shady knife wielding mexicans. was very stressed by "vacation", so it was neccessary to chainsmoke. Later that night was fun. was having a smoke on the hotel balcony, and the teams for the curling championships were getting back from their... whatever it is they do. scottish team was drunk and singing drinking songs at 1 am. yelled gutentag! at the german team, they werent amused by my knowledge of their language (my knowledge being: Gutentag!).

Day 3 (today):
Not so bad, the most horrible part of the day was that i broke my 2nd to last smoke and had to smoke my last one. so mad! then the piss van, but you heard about that already.


So now all i have to do is wait for joe to come back from the moon. I think i'll grabba beer from the fridge and go beg my mom to buy me smokes. a smashing idea!!

Tue, Mar. 22nd, 2005, 02:03 pm
School is so fun!!!

Seriously. But i have to go to music appreciation with Mr Arnold, the fattest, grossest, biggest teacher EVER!!!! I want to go home. It's my mama's birthday today! Me and Joe have to go buy her pressies, then go to dinner with everyone and have a grand ole time.
I want to go to the zoo so bad. I don' tknow if we can though, not this weekend. Maybe though, the zoo is so fun. I love it! I wanna see the giraffes!


Agh! I have to go now, ttyl!

Tue, Mar. 15th, 2005, 08:06 pm
Skyrockets in Flight, Afternoon Delight! (slang for NOON SEX)

Well well well. Hello, how are you all? I am fine. Very fine. Let's see what's up with me...

I think I'll list 'em all off!! Yes...

1. I finally got out of drivers ed... but i still have to drive with big fat Larry about 6 more times. The mini cooper scares me, i'm claustrophobic.
2. Me and Joe are going to put paper in envelopes for a living! (maybe) WE WILL BE ROLLING IN THE CASH!! (maybe)
3. I got a car, it's a 87 red mercedes, and i am in love with it and i don't know how to work any of the gadgets... i just now figured out the stereo!
4. Still with my lovely darling J.A. Dick! Almost 9 months! We're gonna get married and live in the woods. And Cody will live next door and grow weed. Good times.
5. Joe's car died... completely. Twas sent to the junkyard or something. Rest In Pieces Dick's Valdeze, Rest in Pieces.
6. Um, I have a zit. It's gross and annoying. It's a warning to take my pill... maybe i should listen to my skin. It's begging for a regular daily dose of hormones.
7. I'm gonna graduate on time! (maybe) Go slacker Christie! (maybe)
8. I stroke it to the East, and I stroke it to the West... I be strokin'!

Sun, Nov. 21st, 2004, 07:36 pm
whoop!!

So I had Mono, that's why I was sick. Oh well, I'm better now. Me and Joe went to Discovery Park in Seattle this weekend. It was fun, but tiring. Then we went to Amy's house after the play on Saturday night. Collin gave me and Cody shrooms, aaah, it was crazy. It was the first time i did them. At Amy's house when they kicked in I just looked at Cody's goofy ass and started laughing so hard I started crying. And the whole night I jsut laughed and laughed. It felt so good to laugh. It was like all the laughter I've ever had to hold in in my life just sprang out of me. And when I looked at Amy's X-Men poster it was waving in the wind, and when I looked at my pants they turned black and were like, made up of neon pink, green and yellow skull and crossbones. Then we left Amy's and went to Cody's. And on the ride to Cody's I kept looking up at the moon, and I saw Satan's face grinning at me every time i looked up at the sky. Then when we got to Cody's I sat there and looked at my hands for a long ass time. They were like being mummified it looked like. Like my hand would get old and wrinkly lookin, and then it would youngify and be normal. And the wrinkled like opened up and would like... breath, it looked like. Then Joe drove me home and he was all scared for me. He's like "Don't go in the dark!", "Don't you dare leave your house!", "If you start to freak out call me or talk to your mom!...and get a blanket, you're freezing!" It was cute. Heehee. But I got inside and lay in bed for like 2 and a half hours just hallucinating. I looked at this one page in Vogue for like a good half an hour, it was just awesome looking! I crawled in my blankets after a while cuz i got cold, and i was just SO HAPPY about my blankets! I kept saying "Aaah, blanket! BLAN-KET!!" Then I looked at my ceiling and watched it crawl around for a while. But then i got tired and decided I needed to sleep. So I debated with myself whether or not to turn off the lights. I finally did, and when I did all I was was cat and owl eyes, just EVERYWHERE!! It was scary, so I shut my eyes and went to sleep. It was cool.

Now my sister's crying for no reason like a little bitch. Gah. I'm gonna go get high in an hour or so and finish my painting.

Fri, Nov. 12th, 2004, 10:55 am

I'm sick on a Friday. That blows. I wanted to go with Mr Dick today. Parce que il est mon amour. Et j'aime lui!!!! BLAH!!

Anyways.
next weekend me and joe are going to LA PUSH!! And we get to be together! Alone... ish. But more alone then we usually are. That makes me happy. Just me and Him. He's my favorite, I love when it's just me and him. Cuz it seems like barely ever. Because his parents are all weird about me and him being alone in his room, and he doesn't like being at his house for too long if his parents are there... which they always are. So then we'll go to Cody's and usually we smoke, and then when he's high he kinda forgets me it seems... his mind is completely elswhere... I don't forget him though. Nope. Never.


i don't know what this has to do with anything, but I like it.

Oingo Boingo
Insanity

I'm so sorry, please forgive me
Who do I pray to to straighten out this problem?
Straighten out this problem, straighten out my mind.
Straighten out this crooked toungue...
My mind has wandered, from the straight and narrow.
My mind has wandered from the flock you see.
My mind has wandered, the man just said so.
My mind has wandered, I heard it on TV.
And the flock has wandered away from me.
-CHORUS-
All around the world now
Like a big bright cherry cloud
Traveling from home to home
TV sets and telephones
Here it comes just like a storm
Bathe in it and be reborn
Time to let the world know
Welcome madness, say hello
Like a wave we cannot see
Washing over you and me
Hiding here and hiding there
Madness hiding everywhere
Such a curiosity
Here it comes to set us free
Plenty left for you and me
Say hello insanity
I am the virus, are you the cure?
I am morally, I'm morally impure
I am a disease and I am unclean
I am not part of God's well oiled machine
Christian nation, assimilate me
Take me in your arms and set me free
I am part of a degenerate elite
Dragging our society into the streeet
Into the abyss and to the sewer don't you see
The man just told me, he told me on TV
Do you think you're better than me
Do you want to kill me or befriend me
And the alchoholic bastard waved his finger at me
His voice was filled with evanglical glee
Sipping down his gin and tonics
While preaching about the evils of narcotics
And the evils of sex, and the wages of sin
While he mental fondles his next of kin
My mind has wandered from the flock you see
And the flock has wandered away from me
And he waved his hypnotizing finger at me
Let's imitate reality
Let's strive for mediocrity
Let's make believe we're all the same
Let's sanitize our little brains
I'd love to take you home with me and tuck you into bed
I'd love to see what makes you tick inside your pretty head
I'd love to hear you laugh tonight, I'd love to hear you weep
I'd love to listen to you while you're screaming in your sleep
Christian sons, christian daughters
Lead me along like a lamb to the slaughter
Purify my brain and hose down my soul
White perfection, perfection is my goal
Do you think you're better than me
Do you want to kill me or befriend me
Christian nation, make us alright
Put us through the filter and make us pure and white
My mind has wandered from the flock you see
And the flock has wandered away from me
Let's talk of family falues while we sit and watch the slaughter
Hypothetical abortions on imaginary daughters
The white folks think they're on the top ask any proud white male
A million years of evolution, we get Danny Quayle
(chorus)
I'd love to take you home with me, I'd love to tuck you in
I wish I could protect you from the wages of our sin
I'd love to hear you scream tonight, I'd love to hear you cry
Protect you from the madness that is raining from the sky
(chorus)
I'd love to take you home with me and tuck you into bed
I'd love to see what makes you tick inside your pretty head
I wish that I could keep you in a precious Chinese box
On Sundays I would pray for you so it would never stop
I'd love to hear you laugh tonight, I'd love to hear you weep
I'd love to listen to you while you're screaming in your sleep
I'd love to soothe you with my voice and take your hand in mine
I'd love to take you past the stars and out of reach of time
I'd love to see inside your mind, to tear it all apart
To cut you open with a knife and find your sacred heart
I'd love to take your satin dolls and tear them all to shreds
I'd love to mess your pretty hair, I'd love to see you dead.

Wed, Oct. 27th, 2004, 08:30 pm
the five 'o clock news is a fucking fantasy

School is such a pain in the ass. I've had this horrible pain behind my eyes for the past 2 days and going to school just makes it hurt worse. Because they're open... and learning things.
School's taking too long too. Everyday is like a lifetime, it's ridiculous. There's nothing to do lately either. I want to do something fun this weekend, but that's probably a bust. Then again it IS Halloween, and that party at Amy's is going on on Friday. I dunno, I might be too worn to drink. I was too worn out last weekend to even move barely. No wonder my mom worries, i'd probably worry about me too. I should sleep some for the next 2 nights. Perhaps 'tis a good idea. Mom's gonna make me eat my pork she cooked. I hate pork, but she'll be mad if i don't eat it. I hate meat altogether. it's too filling, it makes me feel sick. I ate some celery, a kiwi, and an apple when i got home, didn't make me feel sick at all. But the meat just makes me want to keel over. I dunno why. I'm just all fucked up.

Yeah, I want to build a big ass cabin in the woods. Then me and Joe could go there and have no one bother us. Cuz all this week both his stepmom and his dad don't hav to work. And Kelsy has half days. Gah. I need to sleep....

Sun, Oct. 24th, 2004, 02:05 pm
love rhymes with pity

Love Rhymes With Hideous Car Wreck
The Blood Brothers

Those tire tracks
zigzag your torso like a Devil's self portrait.
The car accident, the skin graft treatment, the flower baskets,
the wincing relatives...

you bid her farewell then got in your car
and that's the last thing that you can recall.
and when they pulled you out
you didn't know your name
exploding semi truck blurred your face with flame...

you met Jane four years ago today
dancing at some vomit-stained frat party.
Her newspaper gown, flashing headline brown, her violent gypsy dance,
her tired underpants...

Love
rhymes with pity now
Love
rhymes with sympathy now

Jane let you touch and feel her
she was so free like a pineapple in a tree
You said it's dangerous
to be so intimate
You know it's dangerous, dangerous, dangerous.

Jane said when she laid on her back
the sun hit her body like an ugly landscape.

But some things never get better
like used cars and bad livers.
So you traded her in for a better looking brand.
One with fake porno tits
a pad lock on her lips
disposable tan
biodegradable hands.

Back at the hospital
you got no visitors at all.
She visits you in your sleep,
but that newspaper gown is always on fire

She met him a week after you left her
when you tossed out her touch to the garbage collector.
He talked her out of her skirt in his beer-soaked apartment
and then they did all the things
you never said that you wanted.
And the sirens are laughing underneath your skull.
And your thoughts are turning dull, callous and cold.
Yesterday you gave your burden a name.
Yesterday you gave your burden a face.

But your burden looks an awful lot like her.

Love
rhymes with pity now
Love
rhymes with sympathy now

Sun, Oct. 24th, 2004, 11:46 am
Sunday morning...

Things are looking up, I must say. I feel like it was a wee bit of a mistake to say anything, but I needed to. It was good for me to talk about it. I think it made Joe a little sad though... or a lot sad. I don't really know, actually. I hope just a little sad. I wouldn't want to make him super upset, i love him so much.

Anyways, last night was Homecoming. Not that fun of a night. We didn't go to the dance, we couldn't have anyways because Oseph is suspended. We picked up Amy and hung out with her. But we all got really high and just ended up almost falling asleep in Joe's living room. It's good we didn't though, or else I'd have been grounded for a week... again.

Aagh, a little pebble of hardened blood just came out of my neck. What the fuck?

Great, the back of my neck is now bleeding like a crazy ass mother fucker. Maybe the pebble was blocking something. Like a hardeded blood dam...

My daddy's coming back to Seattle in about a week and a half. I'm happy. I haven't seen him for almost a year. He's such a big Jim Carrey lookin' dork, I've missed him.

 

THE BLOOD IS RUSHING!!!!

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